Paleo, realized I needed to eat more, tried eating more on my own, tried diet templates, and ultimately ended up starving myself to make weight for meets. I had gained 10lbs over the year of craziness and I was miserable. My lifts were barely hanging on and I was starting
to get sick more often and especially before meets. I was resisting help, always thinking, “it’s simple, just eat less and do more”. Ironically, I was seeking help and knowledge in weightlifting because I knew I had more to learn. Funny how because I own this body, I feel like I’m an expert. Obviously, I was not. Luckily, through that search for knowledge, I came across a lot of smart people talking about the fact that nutrition and training go hand-in-hand. This link brought me to my cliff, do I let go and admit I need help, or do I keep hanging on to this whirlwind of crap, of getting sick, of having no control and trying to enforce my willpower over my body. Written that way, it seems like the decision was easy. I struggled with paying for help on something that I should be the expert of (my body and all things it is and does).
Finally, after seeing my weight go up on a diet template, I decided to let go and get monthly, personal coaching. From a real person, not a spreadsheet.
Through some research I was pointed in a direction that lead me to Kylie. I will FOREVER be grateful for the past year with her. She confidently talked about what the plan was, checked in always, and replied to the millions of questions I had. At first I was a little reluctant to start eating more, as is everyone. I felt bloated, puffy, and kind of doubtful that anything was going to work. She consistently reassured me that what I was feeling was normal and explained why.
Two months after working with Kylie, I had a weightlifting meet. I also had 10-12lbs to lose. At the time I was willing to do whatever it took to make weight, but Kylie wasn’t going to let me. She knew the damage that would do (and was doing from previous meets). Patience. That’s what I realized after that meet. After two months with Kylie, my weight was the same, if not a lb or 2 higher. But I felt better. I had energy. I felt like this may just work.
My weight started to slowly come down over the next two months. But I wasn’t cutting. I was slowly increasing food. I was feeling freedom for the first time, freedom from telling myself “no” all the time. My clothes were starting to fit a little better. I had another meet coming up, and another 8-10lb to lose. This time we were ready though. I was eating (what I considered) a ton of food, so dropping weight didn’t mean huge drop in calories. At least, that’s what she said… but it worked. I made weight for the meet without completely starving the week before. It was still a little stressful to lose all that weight, but it was easier than ever before (and I had some PR’s at the meet). As some collateral benefit, I had some abs showing through too.
In another couple months I had a weightlifting meet and a goal of qualifying for the American Open. Turns out to qualify, you have to make weight first. I was ready for a month of eating and a month of cutting. BUT I only had 4lbs to cut this time because my weight didn’t rebound back 10lbs after cutting for the previous meet. I was eating even more and getting closer to my weight class. I was beyond excited about this, but mostly about eating a lot of food. I easily made weight for the meet and I got to eat dinner the night before weigh-ins. I GOT TO EAT DINNER THE NIGHT BEFORE. Seriously.
Since the meet I have maintained that weight within a few lbs (and now my ribs have abs) and am eating even more. I never thought it would be this easy. I didn’t think it was going to be this easy when I was doing it. I thought Kylie was slightly crazy. She is crazy. Crazy smart, helpful, supportive, and just awesome. I owe her more than our monetary transactions. She has given me confidence, freedom from food, knowledge, peace of mind, and so many other things. There is literally no more stress about my weight and I am truly thankful for that.